i'm wide awake the more i sleep

THE OTHER BIG GAY SOAD SPAM

2009-02-08T20:36:52Z

oh shitfuck I found MORE PICTURES.

Blurry, but Daron is doing that ever-popular leeeeaaaaaning thing.

Seriously, Daron, WHAT THE HELL. WHAT THE FUCK, MAN. That is like....the gayest thing. EVER.

Oh, Daron, so fem. I C U THAR CAMERAGUY.

I finally found the other circus pictures! Apparently Daron is actually the knife swallower. And he's doing it wrong according to Zan.

I THINK. MAYBE, UM. ZAN AND I WERE A LITTLE BIT OFF WHEN WE GUESSED THIS ONE. And jesus fucking h. christ it took me so long to find that picture.

Daron being a silly bitch.

GAYER THAN A MAN-PURSE.

STILL GAYER THAN A MAN-PURSE.

Totally irrelevant, but my dad has this on a shirt.

Not really very gay, but Daron's doing the Shawshank Redemption pose there and I thought it looked rather amusing.

srs face.

Daron, you twit.

The little princess has to do his makeup, you guys.

Seriously, what the hell is Daron wearing?

GAYEST THING EVAR. GAAAAY.

Somebody explain to me what the hell is going on in this picture. Seriously, guys, what the fuck.

Blurry-ass picture. But that is in fact Daron and Shavo. Daron's the one with tinsel on his neck and Shavo is the one...yeahhhhh.

Serj, get away from that, you don't know where it's been. And Zan says Daron looks like a possessed Oompa Loompa.

Shavo looks drunk, John looks scared, and guess where Serj's hand is?

This implies that they're all AT LEAST shirtless in a shower together.

See? they do stage cuddles, too!

Although personally, I like Serj/Daron stage cuddles better.

*big retarded grin with squealing*

Harder to see, but yeah, GAY~

So there was this thing where Serj and Daron dressed up as George W. Bush and Saddam Hussein and walked around holding hands. It was the most disturbing thing ever, but the hand-holding was cute.

IT'S OVERRR!

Stay tuned for the John-is-good-with-kids-and-should-adopt-Ethiopian-babies-with-Shavo spam and the scary!Serj spam :D

GIANT-ASS GAY SOAD SPAM part 1

2009-02-02T06:24:47Z

For those who don't believe me when I say System Of A Down is slashy.

This is here to show you both how close they all are and how fucking skinny Shavo is. Look at him! He should eat more D:

Words cannot describe the gayness or hilarity of this collection of photos.

Hand-holding!

Oh, Serj. Do you not realize it's shirtless o' clock? Shavo is still a skinnybitch. John is kinda pudgy and stocky, mmmm. And Daron is a twink.

Of course Daron has had his even GAYER days. Back in the early 90s, he looked like this. In fact, back then, they all looked like the cast of a gay porno. Though I do think Serj looks more like the director here.

Bleached hair Serj, wtf. Also Daron still looks gay. But, WHAT THE HELL, PLAID PANTS?

Guhhhhh, I love John. He's a hot, stocky, bearded drummer who actually takes his shirt off a whole lot. Daron there is pretty nice as wellll~

For those who think that SOAD is unslashable because they're too hairy.

ALL ABOOOOARD.

Serj teaches Shavo how to properly snort cocaine.

Happy Rape John For Free Day!!

See, there is always a lot of touching going on. They seem very at ease with one another and don't feel the need to hump eachother's faces. To tell the truth, stage face-humping gets annoying after a while. It's too obviously fake.

.........prepare for a fic based on this.

Shavo/John fics plz? From what I heard, this happened during Roulette. Shavo sat down and started singing along with Serj, Daron, and the fans. At some point John left his drumkit (there are no drums or bass in the song) and joined Shavo. It's just so sweet ;__;

more hairless little twink Daron! Sparkly guitar, ololol.

Old-ass picture! With bleach hair John, afro Serj, bleadhed beard Shavo, and.....uhm. Daron...looks an awful lot like Ryan Ross really.

"Fuck Your Prayers" is what that shirt says. Although I am a little more interested in John's LACK of shirtedness.

CAKE PARTY TIME.

There's just something really adorable about Daron here, and about Serj's look of adoration and amusement. Oh, and Serj's arm is totally around Daron almost. Like YAAAWN OH THAT WAS TOTALLY AN ACCIDENT YEAH.

Serj looks femme, Daron's making an angel face, Shavo looks half asleep, John looks bored. All is well.

I like to imagine that John is very jealous that Shavo is paying attention to Daron. Though I think he's more interested in stealing that piece of cake. Serj is oblivious to the DRAMA!

John finally allows himself to cut loose and grin. And Shavo knows something we don't apparently.

Pretty!Serj :D

ADORABLE LITTLE CHILD SERJ. N'AWWWW!

Drawing your attention away from what looks like a pretty rough bruise on Daron's eye (DDD:), note that John and Shavo have their arms around one another! Awwww.

Another one of theese >.>

leg touching! but also DARON'S SHIRT <3

Shavo is a skinnybitch, John is bored, Daron is a twink, and Serj is a....nun?

...lolwut.

John's prom photo. I....I don't think he ages. He looks THE SAME. Dear god he's immortal.

Spandex!John, possessed!Shavo, gay!Mime!Daron, and......Serj.

See, this is why Zan says John reminds her of Satan in a business suit. First Church of Business Satan, plz.

ahhahahahahah, what the fuck.

Serj trying and apparently failing to frown, Daron trying to impersonate Snape, Shavo trying to look GANSTA, and Business Satan succeeding in looking like a badass mafia hitman.

Helllooooooooooo.

now if only those pants were lower...loooooooowerrrr....

Shavo is totally ignoring that chick. Also, Serj looks really laid back and relaxed as always. I love him and his calm hippie-ish attitude.

Serj really loves to smile for the camera, even when no one else notices said camera.

Obligatory prison fic here.

I cannot find the other two to figure out what Daron and Shavo are, but knife throwing John and juggler!Serj are awesome.

Daron looks really content, Serj is LOLing, Shavo is also LOLing, and Satan looks bitchy.

....another one of those gay but WHAT THE FUCK ish kind of pictures. Hugs are cute but Shavo looks like he's going to kill us and Daron is some kind of...I don't even know.

SERJ <3'S CAMERAS.

GAAAAAAAAY.

fucking watermark.

Serj and Daron illustrating last night's excursions.
John looks rather unhappy to be in that spandex suit. Also, WHAT THE HELL IS WITH HIS SHOES? They do not work with that outfit.
Shavo has his rape face on.

They all just look so pretty here. Except for Daron who looks like a twat.

Head pats are LOVE.

END PART 1

The next part is a smaller spam made up of photos of SOAD with fans that happen to be adorable little kids to show you how awesome John and Shavo are with chillens and thus should adopt little babies together. N'aww. I'll do it later though cause I'm sick of Photobucket.

Most of these images are from SOADfans.com.

You guys, I've found two new OTPs.

I have a new layout.

2008-07-29T00:37:12Z

Look. Manson is on my layout. He's CUTE in that picture, no?

MARILYN MANSON IS CUTE.

WHERE IS YOUR GOD NOW?!

-Tikky <3

ALSO: layout is from here : http://allwashedout.livejournal.com/

KILL IT WITH FIRE

2008-07-27T08:55:37Z

from my deviantart journal:

My LiveJournal friends page is flooded with a LEGION of Frerard fics. STOP IT. FUCK.
LEGION AS IN "WE ARE MANY".

(I quote that whenever I am pissed off at something that is in great numbers.)

I am so sick of Frank/Gerard right now. They're cute, sure, but they're EVERYWHERE and they're BORING.

And it pisses me off that they face-fuck on stage, they wear pink feather boas and pink belts and more makeup than most girls I know, they talk with their hands on their hips and kiss other guys plenty and yet they BOTH claim they are 100% straight.

"I don't know why you're so confused about my sexuality!"

Oh, I don't know, maybe it's the making out on stage thing, you think?

I am. Just. So sick of Fanfics about them. And none of them are good.

However, I still have to watch this stupid frerard community because I'm reading a story in it for the Bob/Ray background pairing (I suck, lol) and it's pissing me off. But it's not just that comm. SafeHavenSlash is being infected by the Frerard epidemic, too!
I don't mind the occasional fic but the whole page is like..Frerards and Fall Out Boy or Panic At The Disco crossovers.

KILL IT WITH FIRE!

reply from Taylor:

which is why I do not read that much bandslash.

ALWAYS

flooded

with terrible chilches about goths, gays, vampires (jesus christ there are so many vampire stories in the MCR category, it's BORING) and just...bad writing. Most people I know (and don't know) that write THAT kind of bandslash are the same 13-to-17 year olds that made INUYASHAKAWAII fanfics when the fad of being an insane weeaboo was still kind of big on the intranets.

Jesus Christ, I've even seen it affect Disturbed here and there ;^; god help us all if someone comes along and Rule 34's David Draiman >.> If they have without me knowing, which is...very likely, ew

also it is very late. So this might not make a lot of sense, sorry

reply to Taylor from me:

LHAWD JEBUS VAMPIRES >.<

I can't help it, I love bandslash and the only other fandom I'm really into as of late is Kevin Smith movies which seem to kind of lack in the fanfic department because they're such a cult film series.

Goths, fuuuuck. ONE MORE TIME, FUCKERS, if you say that Gerard has Raven Black Hair (it needs capitalization because it is a separate being), Green eyes, and porcelain skin, I will start breaking out the chainsaws. His hair is brown dyed black, much like mine, his eyes are a hazelish...borwnish...MUD color and I don't give a fuck because Bob has prettier eyes anyways, and porcelain is what toilets are made of.

Gays. I can make anything slash just for fun, but it pisses me off that every gay important character has a huge dick. I mean, sure, Ray's pants are tight enough to where sort of know he's probably really hung but the rest of them? NOBODY KNOWS. Nor do I care all that much. For god's sake, make them normalish for once.

Vampires, fuck them. I hate them in fanfics because it's always fuckin Gerard the VAMPIIIRE. At least make Ray or Bob the vampire, because Bob looks vaguely like David in the Lost Boys and Ray needs to be something more than Gerard's friend from school that gets his name mentioned or someone's fuckin cab driver or whatever and Bob needs to be more than their bouncer or whatever.

The people that write the good bandslash are like my friends holyfroraytoro, onlylirael, blood_theory, etc.
But there are so many more fucking little illiterate 11-year-olds ARGH.

But I can't help it because there's no other fandom that I like and can slash without getting only 2 or 3 fics.

Because I hate TV, mostly. I hate anime (THE INTERNET KILLED IT) and the last good cartoon has 6 fucking episodes and falls into the category of Kevin Smith's weirdass comedy cult flicks, and everything else on TV is stupid. And no I will not watch Aqua Teen whatthefuckever because I do not want to slash food.

And as of late, instead of writing decent MCR slash, those that aren't killing me with Frerard (which is worse than fire atm) are writing shit with...

- Fall Out Boy - I hate Pete Wentz. I can never tell what Patrick is fucking saying. He's a good singer, but he pronounces NOTHING. I don't like their pop-ish sound anyways.

- Panic At The Disco - WHATEVER.

- Avenged Sevenfold - I HATE how badass they try to look but they still sound whiny and emo. Gawd. And wtf is so great about Hat Boy or Syn or whatever his name is? MY HAT IS SPARKLIER.

- Simple Plan - WHY?! WHYYYY?!?

Just.

I am going to die.

I really am.

Video time.

2008-07-21T07:52:21Z

YES I LIKE THE LION KING.

And that's a pretty song because Apocalyptica is win.

Let me know what you think, since I haven't gotten any feedback on that video yet :/

Go to the youtube page for it to see it in high def.

Writer's Block: On Character Preferences

2008-07-18T21:59:36Z

Who is your favorite fictional character? Why do you love them? What fictional character bugs you?

Submitted By twisted_clarity

View 500 Answers

Ummm. Fictional.

Well, I guess that depends. I have many. I'm pretty sure Jay and Silent Bob count as one character, because they're never fucking apart EVER and stuff. So them.
Now, if you
re talking about books, I'd have to pick either Victor Pascow (the zombie that tried to be the voice of reason in Pet Sematary) or Ray Huizenga (the construction worker from Cell). Vic was just cool, and he knew what he was talking about. Ray was funny, charming, sort of awkward, and he cussed a lot. Then he shot himself, which made me very sad.

I also am partial to Ray from Ghostbusters (what is it with my favourite characters being named Ray?), because he was funny and adorable, and Julian from The Happening, and why do my favourite characters bite it so often?!
ALSO, I <3 Metatron from Dogma.
Loki was adorable, too, and Azrael was the best villain EVER.

Ahem.

WELL.

-Tikky <3

For the love of god.

2008-07-13T02:10:04Z

Ever notice how many communities are full of assholes? If you're new and you accidentally post asking for a genre of a fic or something else against the rules, you're attacked by a legion of people saying "this is NOT the place for that, read the fucking rules, you stupid fuck!" and then if someone tells them to be less rude, they freak the fuck out. "oh my god, DON'T FUCKING BITCH ABOUT ME, DICKHEAD! I'm only telling thing the RULES."

Yes, reading the rules is important, but humans have a finite capacity to remember things on demand. Face it. And don't be rude about it, especially if it's a first offense thing.

I hate when people are rude. Ugh.

-Tikky <3

Well, fuck.

2008-07-12T22:04:07Z

Okay, so, I'm just gonna make a list of shit I need to finish. At least....shit in the fanfic category, because, trust me, there's way more art-wise.

--

From Cruise Ship 8 (which desperately needs a new name, but I can't change it 10 chapters in, can I?) - Working on 11. But. It's really hard because I can't write for shit these days.

Anarchy Is An Understatement - No one was reading it, so I may never finish it. I need to know people are reading my shit to be really compelled to move on, sorry for sounding like a comment whore. Just let me know if you like my fics, alright?

The Walmart Baby fic - I have roughly half of chapter two. I need some idea for it. Please?

The Pop-Up Uterus Adventures (or whatever. The Bob/Ray Boomsverse mpreg) - :/ I am completely stuck. Let me know if you think I should finish that one.

Dog Person - People liked this one, but I have no more inspiration for it. Anyone have suggestions?

Paranormal - We're workin' on it. Episode two was meant to be more focused on Gerard and Frankie("Francine"), but alas....it's full of Ray emoing and Bob being an asshole because he's dumb enough to be one unintentionally all the fucking time. But it WILL have a good amount of Gerard/drag!Frankie and stuff.

Sky Is Over - Again, I'm stuck. But I have a page or two of the next chapter written.

Onlylirael's fic exchange request - Going slowly but surely. Hopefully, my headaches will clear up and my shoulder will stop hurting so I can fucking THINK.

--

SHIT MY BRAIN WANTS ME TO WRITE -
(If any of these look inexplicably amazing, do tell. I may write them if I'm inspired enough. I'm also looking for a co-writer ~~so I can be lazy and only write half the fic~~ so I can have a story of combined talents.)

the one about the autopsies - So. Ray is one of those autopsy dudes like in CSI. This is loosely based on an episode of CSI: Miami. SO. Bob comes in (dead) and Ray is doing the autopsy. As he's about to cut Bob up, Bob wakes up and Ray is like "WTF WTF WTF". Turns out Bob was date-raped, knocked out with some type of poison (pufferfish or whatever? Anja told me what makes you look dead, but I forgot what it was exactly), then dumped into a lake. Before he could drown, he washed up on shore. Now, Bob knows who did it, but no one knows where the dude is. And Bob must live at Ray's place because he's scared of going home when someone wants him dead?
Anyways, they fall in love and stuff and other such adorableness.

something with more supernatural creatures - Like, they're all these weird creatures, okay? Frankie is some kinda water thingy person (like that girl in Lady In The Water, only he looks less human and shit, but he's not a mermaid goddammit), Ray had bigass wings and claws and fangs (LIKE A PIGEON...wait, no...) and HE WILL KICK YOUR ASS, Gerard is ...um... something else (maybe a naga...you know, people with snake bodies instead of legs? They're so fucking cool) and thus Mikey is the same damn thing.
And Bob can be a guy from animal control and he gets trapped in the woods with them and stuff happens and it's THE END OF THE WORLD or whatever and and he's stuck with them. I dunno. It sucks, but it's been stuck in my head.

a musical - Not sure how I'd pull it off, but a musical style fic with Marilyn Manson music and SOAD music and, of course, MCR. Whatever.

the Ray-goes-to-hell fic - yep. Based on the song "Lamb Of God" by Marilyn Manson. Bob died years ago in a car wreck or something equally cliche (HIT BY A TRAIN?) and the band falls apart. So a few years after Bob bites it, Gerard dies and he does it on TV all famous-like, but Ray simply dies of illness away from the media. And he goes to hell and meets Bob, but it's deep in hell, like circle 6 or some shit, and it turns out it was because he was GHEYYY and "sodomites" go to HELL despite not having done anything wrong. But Hell isn't as scary as some like to hope. It's like a shitty city where you get hurt a lot but you heal and I dunno. COMPLICATED. But he meets up with Bob there. Happy. They have gay sex in hell, how fucked up am I?!

--

SO. If you wanna steal one of my ideas, ask me first.

Anything you think I should start/finish? Plot ideas? ANYTHING?
HALP.

-Tikky <3

confidence plz

2008-07-11T07:02:31Z

I have some fucked-up type of low self-esteem going on here.

Every time I IM my friends, I am on edge. I'm always dead afraid that they're annoyed with me. If I note someone on here? I'm scared they're annoyed. I always feel like I'm pissing someone off, and it's probably just post-trauma from my young days of being 'that crazy Hannah kid who sucks her fingers and likes dogs too much' or something.

And maybe it's because of what Amy said.
The reason she hadn't talked to me in a while was something like 'well, you know, you hang out with a friend for a while, then you get to the point where you've had enough for a while. Sometimes I can only take so much Hannah' and that really hurt. I know what she means, but it hurts that people can only take so much of me before they hide completely. I'm sorry I don't have other friends to piss off. They're all avoiding me, too. Or their parents think I'm satan or whatever the excuse is. Regardless, they all seem sick of me. Or they just can't talk to me.

It's just this problem I have. I always get worried that if I note someone over a commission, I'll be too specific and annoy them. Request a music video? I'll message too many times about shit or something. Art trade? I'll ask too many questions. And they'll all be annoyed. Even if they aren't.

It's really kind of bullshit, but I fill like just such right now.

Hugs please?

Devious Journal Entry

2008-05-24T22:30:33Z

Hahah, just got my hearse today :3

Her name is Sunshine, and she's an '89 Cadillac Victoria, manufactured by S&S Coachworks. Got her from a guy named Will.

My dad says that when I'm 18 and have been driving for a couple years, I can drive her XD

I only have one picture, because I used the shitty Sony digital. When I get the photos from my Pentax developed, I'll have a ton more for you.

Here's my baby:

Sunshine Mug Shot XD by ~TikTac on deviant ART

Booms - all chapters

2008-03-17T22:07:08Z

Title: Booms
Author: TikTac
Pairing: Bob/Ray; Frank/Gerard; Mikey/OFC
Rating: Psshhh, I'd say about R for language. We techies curse a lot, especially when things fall. Hell, even my teacher curses.
POV: Third; Omniscient
Summary: In yet another pesky highschool AU, Bob is inducted into the twisted world of confusing stage techies, stuck up actors, and Ray Toro in slightly-too-small tights.
Disclaimer: I LIE. FICTION. LIES.
Author Notes: Uhm, it's not so much my first fanfic as it is the first one I plan on actually continuing and posting. How sad.
Beta: Myself and my word processor >.<
Warnings: Highschool AU annoying-ness, boykissing(as if you didn't expect that), sexual content(like, references, but no hardcore gay porno, cause, honestly, not all highschoolers are whores. I myself am a highschooler and - GASP - still a virgin, have never dated anyone, blah blah blah.), language(remember what I said about us techies...), weirdass stage tech jargon.

Dedicated To: Pine cones and Batman.

NOT dedicated to: Carmel apples. Cheese-wiz. Moon pies. Dodo birds.

Previous Chapters:
1 -Mic Check
2 -Snowball
3 -Spotlight
4 -The Dysfunctional Adventures of the Techies and Friends Part 1
5 -The Dysfunctional Adventures of the Techies and Friends Part 2
6 -Obligatory Excessively-Cute Chapter
7 -Vegas
8 -Routines and Camping Part 1
9 -Routines and Camping Part 2
10 - The Ultimate in Cliche Fillers/Epilogue

o muh gawd

2008-01-24T04:49:48Z

If, by some miracle, you are reading this, and you're some kinda online buddy from SafeHavenSlash or something, FILL THIS OUT NAO.

1. Name:
2. Age/birthday:
3. Taken or single:
4. Favourite movie:
5. Favourite song:
6. Favourite artist/band:
7. Favourite book:
8. Tattoos/piercings?:
9. Favourite tv-show:
10. Favourite video or board game:
11. Do we know each other outside of LJ?:
12. Would you donate a kidney to me?:
13. Tell me something strange/interesting about yourself:
14. If you could change something about your life, what would it be?:
15. Will you put this in your own journal so that I can tell you something about myself?:

SRSLY. DO IT.

lulz, a rant from my DeviantART

2007-12-06T23:16:13Z

If you're reading this, I ask thee "WHY?!" but whatever. Maybe you read some comment I made on your fanfics or whatever.

This is straight from my DeviantART journal, so to make more sense, I'll explain quickly that I'm rather bitchy at times. I rant a lot. And when I get upset, I get all emotional.

Enjoy.

FROM http://tiktac.deviantart.com
Yes, I wrote it myself. I just don't feel like rewriting it for people who don't know me as well as people on dA do. Whatever.

I'm The Next John Lennon, Bitches

Okay, maybe without the voice and the whole singing thing.

But seriously, I'm too harsh for my own good. I piss people off because of what I say and I can't censor things. I can't go and keep myself from speaking my mind, because god dammit, that's censorship. "Your opinion may offend three people, and we can't have that" .

I feel that someday, I'll end up like that guy from Lady in the Water. I'll get killed for what I say. Even if I were to be CERTAIN I'd die for speaking my mind, I'd still do it. If I'm gonna die, I'm not gonna end up some crotchety old bat in a mental institute or whatever, I'm going out with a bang. I want to leave my mark, and if the only way to do that is through my death, by God I will.

Now, to make this clearer, I don't censor what I say. I come off as being way too harsh to some people, because they can't handle my opinionatedness. And sometimes I regret it, but not lately. I say what I believe is true, and people just don't like truth anymore. Because the cold hard truth of the world these days is much too dark for some people to handle.

I'm going to write a book someday. All my thoughts and feelings on censorship and the narrow-mindedness of the United States - no, the world - someday, and I'm bound to get offed for it, but I don't car.e I don't fear death, because I'd rather go out with a bang than rot away in some hospital because I got a little old and just stopped caring.
I don't want to die old. I don't exactly want to die young, per say, but I don't want to end up dying of old age. I want to die in a way that'll make people think.

I found out that I also gave up on good impressions. If I make the good impression of being a sweet, adoringly friendly little girl, people will only get hurt in the discovery that I'm a bitch. I'm a little worked up today, thus my bitch nature emerges.

I'm only worked up cause the car blew another freaking tire and I've been at WalMart for way too long and such instances bring up rants.

Like how I won't be surprised if they kill Serj Tankian and Daron Malakian. When they do(well, if they do..), I'll cry. I'll cry for them and for how pitiful it is that someone would want them dead.

I find that I hurt people with my words a lot. I don't mean to hurt people, but I mean to get a point across, and some people won't get it if you're subtle.

That's enough. The caffeine and stress are giving me heart palpitations.

-Tikky

----

lulz, I had an emo moment.

Next time I wanna write to this journal, I'll rant about censorship(EVIL) or religion(which I find depressing and not really as uplifting as intended). Haha.

-Tikky

Heeeeellllloooo.

2007-10-22T18:43:36Z

If you're reading this, it's probably an accident :D

But in all due seriousness, thanks for noticing my existence.
I might as well introduce myself, hmm? I'm Hannah, but I go by TikTac or Tikky more often. I'm here to read fanfics and probably post rrandom thoughts on politics or something nonsensical like that.

For the most part, I draw. Mainly dogs. You can go find my art on my DeviantART page or something.
I occasionally write stories, and I'm considering writing some fanfics. About My Chemical Romance, cause I feel like it.

So, my writing strengths are angst, perspectives, inner thoughts, insanity, and whatnot, but I suck at things like romantic, fluffy crap, humor, surprise buttsecks(rape), and most anything other than the afformentioned angsty shit I'm good at writing.

Uhmm....my favorite band is actually System of a Down, but MCR kicks ass too, and they'd be easier to write about.
But I still love Daron Malakian more than I love MCR X3 Daron's loony personality rocks. And Kill Rock 'n Roll is the best song EVER.

So...that's plenty of useless things to know about me. Enjoy being bored, everyone :3

-Tikky